My bubble has been punctured several times lately as life changes have been made.
Syd graduated. Amazing & wonderful, she did it and did it well. She was going to go to OU but couldn't keep up with the commitment she had made so now she is staying for another semester here going to TCC. I love it that she is here. I hate it that we had to stick to the commitment. I think as a mom, you always want your kids to have the best/be the best. However, the old saying, "you can take a horse to water, but you can't make it drink" comes to mind. You see it comes down to decisions that EACH of us make, on our own. She CHOSE things other than studying. We CHOSE to keep the commitment, which in the long run we feel will be better for her...We pray!
Drake has come home after a long time away. He had made some terrible choices and they took him down...not to the bottom, but close. There was a "last straw" pulled at his grandparents & now he is here with us part time. I think he is getting better, but the same saying applies to him too. He is going to be 20 this year...at some point you have to stop spoon feeding and let him begin to feed himself. Which we are doing. We pray that we are doing the right thing, we pray that he is making wise choices.
The little ladies are doing great. Annabelle is getting along well with Molly. She tries to pick her up and Molly screams. It's a funny scream. It's a "leave me alone or else & that's mine" scream. You know when you hear that scream what is wrong. Annabelle knows it too. When she hears it, she immediately looks at me and says, "I was just trying to help her!" or something to the like. Molly is growing fast and is teething. She has been crying a ton and following me around, hanging onto my legs...it's hard for me to get anything done.
I love my father-in-law... I was truly blessed with him. He has been here for quit a while & I am so thankful he is here. I love that the girls have a grandparent that is close that loves on them, and corrects them. I love that he is in the Word everyday and shares the Light & Love of Jesus with us. What a gift!
Our business is going well. We added a lady that we have heard nothing but great things about. I pray she will be a great asset to our team. I pray that we have enough work for her. I pray that the new health care legislation doesn't put us out of a job.
With all this great/new/old stuff going on, it has left little time for Kev & I to actually talk. I had a breakdown...we need that time with our husbands. We need them to do more than sleep beside us. My bubble deflated...
I have a pride issue that I didn't want to say that I couldn't handle my life. That I couldn't do it all. I had to tell him, because I wasn't me anymore. The fun loving, caring, funny, goofy person he married. I was a shell. Ladies, talk to your man. I did and he is re inflating my bubble!! He doesn't want the shell, he wants me, but he is no mind reader. I love my man, I am so thankful for him, & I pray for him & for us that we continue to find comfort and protection in each other. What a gift
God has given us!
